While I assure you there is a light at the end of the tunnel, it is your willingness to relinquish every morsel of hope, expectation, and anticipation that allows the intelligence within you to have free reign over your field and redirect your consciousness into a new and exciting direction.
Sometimes it is a belief that you know how the spiritual path is supposed to work or an insistence that you know what you need to do that can block the recognition of your most profound insight. It is an insight that in the acceptance of there being no way out of pain or judgment that ends your war against life.
As your lifelong battle dissolves, you may begin to see how each and every moment has been masterfully designed to ensure your highest growth and expansion - no matter how confusing, hurtful, or frustrating it may seemed to have been.